June 6th, 2005

Subject: feeling sentimental and sappy Time: 08:00 pm

The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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February 1st, 2005

Time: 09:55 pm

Hmmm thats interesting...Us dreamers Eh You Are a Dreaming Soul Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?

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Time: 09:49 pm

You Have A Type A Personality A You are hyper, energetic, and always on the mood You tend to succeed at everything you attempt And if you don't succeed at first, you quickly climb your way to the top! You could be called a workaholic, but you also make time for fun As long as it's high energy and competitive, you're interested You have the perfect personality for business and atheltic success Do You Have a Type A Personality?

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November 15th, 2004

Current Music: mexican food in my stomach Subject: Girls Time: 11:19 pm Current Mood: hopeful

Girls...oh I'm sorry women are the most confusing creatures ever created! Either they want one thing or the other. And I really mean that vague, I love not having to worry about it though. I have gotten to the point where is it is all about me right now and who ever doesnt like it can &$##&&%&^**&^&V^$%&^$&^%&^%%*^&*^*&^#^&&(@^!$$!)!_&# Now that that is done with, I love women and there demanding psycho ways. What would I do without them? I guess I would just be the gay man I really am. Life would be so much more simple and dont think for a second I havent though about it. I would be gay if men were hairless. Anyway...I really do love women but sometimes they get on my nerves. Why dont they just say what they want instead of hinting and assuming that i know what the hell they are thinking and that i remember what i said that pissed them off. I mean Get over it! If you want something you have to go after it of course rejection is right around the corner but hey that life....it's not fair. I have set a goal for my next journal entry, i really want to write something positive but with all the boneheads in the world including myself its almost impossible. I thought this onw wa spositive but now that i am actually thinking about what i am writing i guess it can be taken either way.

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November 2nd, 2004

Current Music: dial tone Subject: Something New Time: 05:52 pm Current Mood: contemplative

What am doing in SD, do I belong here...the only things that are keeping me here is the ocean and the king thing. Maybe I need something new and this is why I cant seem to find my place......Cause maybe it's not here. But I have found that no matter where I go I am still going to be looking for more. Less is more I keep telling myself. I really want some chocolate pudding...I really think I am turning into a gay man. Sometimes they are so cute.

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October 13th, 2004

Current Music: California Love TuPac and Dre Subject: California Love Time: 12:40 pm Current Mood: bouncy

Hey well I feel so refreshed to be back!!! Although I miss some people it still feels good...I cant wait for the show tonight even though i am doing old numbers. And I got a request to do at dyke march...they want to see me do Bob again. I suppose it would work but i dont know the game plan for what how the show goes on. I missed kingin it. I met this girl the other day that jsut moved here from NY she is suppose to be there I though with her being from there she could appreciate the show and not be so critcal. Lately everytime I go out someone is bashing the kings and of course I have back us up...but anyways. I cant wait to get back in the groove and kick ass and all the girls!! I mean....hug them hehe.....i mean shake their hands! I am trying to start the new and improved towards women but so far temptation rules.

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October 6th, 2004

Current Music: Pixies Subject: Urgggghhh.... Time: 02:53 pm Current Mood: lonely

Why must things be and continue to be more complicated, there seemed to be a time when everything was simple but yet fucked up. I'm not sure if I'd rather things complex and fucked up or simple and fucked up. Either way there will always be panic and I will be simply calm at the most scary things and spporactically paniced at the simple things in life. Yesterday was my sister's b-day, I feel guilty that sometimes I forget how old...I still see her as the 21 yr old when she passed away. So I guess that makes her 27 now. I sometimes wonder how my life would have turned out if she and my bro would have lived...would I be where I am now. I'm sure my family would def be different, I'm sure one day they will start celebrating holidays again in an empty house. Ohhh...but there's me. I think sometimes I get taken for granted, am I not worth celebrating anything. At least a little turkey on Thanksgiving or a fuckin mistletoe up for Christmas. Oh well the mysteries of Life and what would be only if...? I hate this time of year when all the families get excited, when did I get so miserable...We always want what we cant have...but what is worst is We used to have that. I miss waking up on Christmas morning running to my sisters room and jumping on her bed as she snuggled down into her covers more. And wanting a Barbie instead of Gi-Joe because that's what my big sis was getting. I longed to be her in everyway, perfect. And me the, oddball! It's nice to have someone you know will always be proud of you and stick up for you...now its just me! Another month and my lil' bros b-day will be here and then their death anniversary in Dec. What a lovely time...it's a good thing I have become numb and distant.

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October 4th, 2004

Current Music: Sarah Woolfe awesome local artist Subject: Hair Time: 03:31 pm Current Mood: anxious

Well...after mind debating about writing in this journal, I've decided that what is there to lose. Who is anyone to judge me!! Two days ago I was trying to put a conditioner treatment on my hair...so for 5.99 I thought this was a good idea cause my hair was getting really long cause i was going to eventually have a mohawk before i came back to SD. I put some Bob on and started doing my hair, it said to leave it in for 20 mins but around the 15th min I noticed my hair changing colors so I rushed to the bathtub to rinse it out as I looked down in the tub there was floating down the drain BIG chucks of my hair. I of course started to panic and rushed to the mirror and my hair looked like chow mein noodles. I proceeded to comb my hair and it all came out on the comb...paniced some more and ended up having to buzz my head. So now I have no hair and its starting to get a bit nipply outside. So i def wont be putting any dye or anything in my hair for awhile. I am so excited to come back Oct.9th BAby!!

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